i'm screaming: I love you!

Hey look, more bullets?  Does that still shock you?  You're slowww.

• I have now seen Cobra Starship live TWICE.
• I've now seen Forever the Sickest Kids live THREE TIMES.
• I have now seen both Sing It Loud and Hit the Lights live.
• Yes, that all means that I went to the Sassyback Tour.
• I went in Cincinnati.
• I met several members of some of the above bands.
• I GOT PICTURES!!!
• I started and finished a whole other NaNoWriMo novel since last I blogged here.
• So that was pretty insane.
• My fully complete 2nd novel is titled, "The Life and Times of H. Chiller"
• I'm considering doing ScriptFrenzy this year, even if I probably won't win.
• My next concert will either be Taste of Chaos 09 or the AP Tour 2009, which will be my second time going to either of those tours.
• I'm dead set on getting a new 4th generation iPod Nano this month.
• I will.
• This holiday season, I'll also be one of 500 lucky fucks to get HeyChris's new book.
• I'm continuing back-forth letters with Mallory.
• I thought I was going to get asked out today, and I still may this week.
• Apparently the guy's "insanely shyyyy", so says my friend.
• My lunch table is dramatic enough to give me a heartattack.
• If I don't get one from you know, not eating lunch first, haha.
• Winter is a hard time to blog, or live really, my fingers are cold.
• My parents keep talking about moving and obsessively looking at houses in a very particular part of Florida.
• I'm doing a report in English about being an A&R, and it's all BULLSHIT.
• As in, I made it all up since I couldn't get research sources.
• Twilight is on hold for me in the library, for the last three weeks.
• I may beg someone to get me it for Christmas.
• Oh yeah, the aforementioned HeyChris book?
• It bankrupted my "Folie A Deux" cash stock.
• You know I have to have that shit the dayyy it's out.
• I'm completely virginal to all songs besides "I Don't Care"
• Blogging in bullets is fun shit, yo.
• I'm reading a pretty cool book called "Nightmare Academy" right now.
• Ohohoh, and we have 7 puppies right now!
• Their names are Suareasy, Ryland, Ripley, GeeGee, Perry, Laurenlee, and Haley.
• They are all adorable, but Rip's my favorite, because he has a weirdshaped mouth that's so adorable.
• My newest HERO is Kate Voegele.
• I'm listening to The Academy Is... right now.
• In 2009, I really want to see PATD live, finally, or I fail, officially.
• It's almost 2009.
• Shit.
• I'll have to update here with resolutions.
• Because resolutions work so much better with bullets.
• Duh.

Love, lyzzz.

the best of us can find happiness in misery.

I just bullet points is the only way I can update this blog anymore.

• I hate myself for not being more enthusiastic about Sassyback Tour.
• I saw Sean Clark today.  I hate myself for still having feelings&shit for that kid.
• My birthday sucked, in general.
• I have GCH's "The Quilt", but most of my presents are still in the mail.
• The Denny's trip got cancelled.
• School still generally sucks.
• Still undecided on homecoming.  Lost my chance on the dress I was planning to buy.
• Franci and I have hardly spoken in over a week, just like, once and a half convos.  I hate that.
• I've cut twice in the past week.
• I need to get around to finishing some fanfiction now.
• I have to finish it NOW, because NaNoWriMo starts in SIX DAYS!?
• My NaNo plot's going to be fine.
• This was a pretty negative entry.
• I'm in a pretty negative mood.

Wow, bullet points.

and now no one can touch us.

Updates:

• Sing It Loud is my "new favorite band".
• As of now, Sassyback Tour, November 22 is a go.
• My dad fell off a roof, but he's going to be fine now.
• My birthday is in about 18 days.
• The Saturday after my birthday, I'm going to Denny's with my friend Chelsea, then she's staying the night.
• School fucking sucks, but it's going quick so I'll deal, until next semester, which should be better.
• I may go to homecoming, and buy a dress, I don't know, I'm undecided.
• New friend = Courtney.
• Right now Franci's at a date on Bill and Trav's Bogus Journey Tour.
• Currently, I'm writing the ending chapter, chapter twelve to an FTSK fanfic I've been writing and posting on LJ.  I'm amazing.
• NaNoWriMo's coming up quick, my summer procrastination's about to kick me in the ass.
• I really missed this blog.

the last of the great adventure kids.

Sometime before the end of the year, I'll almost certain that I'll go to the Sassyback Tour.
There are like, three possible dates, but like, I don't want to be too much of a strain on the family, so maybe not, but I could, and I might.
Even though I've already seen Cobra Starship once, FTSK twice. But like, I'd love to see Hit the Lights, and I could get into Sing It Loud.

Bought school clothes yesterday.
Four days. I'm only a little intimidated.

hey haterkids! [someday i'll appreciate the sunlight.]

New and improved(?/!) me, one concert older. God, I just never stop. You'd think I've been doing this for years now, the way I go at it. Really, it's like, a year and almost a half. For a whole week post-Warped, I held three disgustingly beautiful huge bruises down the side of my right arm. I poked them a lot, just to let them know I cared. I know how I got them too, elbowing the bikini-topped bimbos trying to get to Derek [Mayday Parade] when he dove from the stage. Eh, whatever, all in all, it was an amazing day.

Rereading "Fight Club", picking up things I missed the first time. And yeah, I'll admit it, I giggle through all the slashy Narrator/Tyler moments. Because come on, he fell in love with himself, it's sweet and twisted and homosexual, LOVE. Having amazing alonetime moments. Trying to build up some loner-resolves. I need to be more of a badass.

Other things, not so awesome, totally. For the first time in months over a year, I feel ALONE. I feel like I could die and no one would care enough. I just want to be like everyone else. I want to be able to just introduce myself to people, and start conversations and relax and open up and just live like everyone else. But I feel alone. I have no one to turn to anymore. I feel completely unwanted. Fuck.

ps.st: i have the insane urge to find songs in me to write.

Damnit, I'm addicted.

		I will marry Chad Sugg.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Murfreesboro in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 1 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a invisible public transpo.
		I will spend my days as a Songwriter, and live happily ever after.

Haha, this thing is kinda amusing.

		I will marry Ryan Ross.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Omaha in our fabulous House.
		We will have 0 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a black Aston Martin.
		I will spend my days as a Merchguy, and live happily ever after.